For What its Worth

What is it worth? there are over 6 billion humans on this earth, 19 major religions which are subdivided into a total of 270 large religious groups, and thousand of other small religions. What about Languages? Only 6,912 living languages (sorry Latin and Celtic, your language may still be in poems and biblical writings...but you are a dead language ;) ) What about cultures? 1500+? Some live in old times, some live in current, most are influenced by their beliefs/religion/government...maybe just one or all....My point is, no matter how much I want war to end and peace to over take the world...no matter how much I just want use to ditch governments, ditch religions and just live for one another, to live for the day, to live for the breath we take....and to take care of the world around us... I know I could not adapt to that, let alone anyone else... its impossible... no way to create a common language w/o having some sort of authority enforce it, people need something to believe in, and no single person has the same thought process...everyone has a gift of having their own mind...and with this gift, we can not see the same way as the man next to us...

Life is a gift, I don't believe from a creator, I am one to believe in evolution, but I am not here to push my spiritual belief's ... Life, we don't realize how blessed we are to have it, and when its gone, we do live on but I don't believe in a spiritual state, but we become part of the earth around us... we feed the earth with our body, we help the nature grow, a basic cycle ... but while are are still here and still have a conscious mind, why do we have to surround ourselves in a world of negativity... why are we programed (in the U.S.) that money is everything... the more the better... we miss life that way... not only matrilistic views... people strive to be better then the man next to him... or not even that... we try to push our views on everyone else, other religions and cultures...we go there to "save the people" "spread the word of god" or w/e religion u may belong to.. you no what, no i dont want this blog to be about this, I am not in the mood of writing about this...

My thing is this WAR we are in, the wars we fought in...the men that are dieing, for a reason not of freedom...not of anything but FUCKING CORPORATIONS GETTING THEIR BIG FUCKING PAY CHECKS... who cares, we have a gov. but they are not ran by the people... its ran but corporations... who sell out its own people to make sure it gets money and power... yea we have a gov. but a senator is a man, that can easly be bought w/ money, cars, fancy things or if not that the threat of his family or loved ones or blackmail.... oh the lobbiest no how to work their ways, 1st lets brib if not lets threaten ..... thus control over our gov. It upsets me... truely does... we can fight it, but try convincing the people, try convincing me even, what is it worth standing against them? What is the point? Will it do a thing? Can we get enough people to have our voice heard? I am comfortable in my own world, it may be selfish, but I suppose I may only worry about myself... why fight such a big cause? b/c I know its wrong? How much is it effecting me? I would imagine in hundreds of ways I dont even realize... big one, is people all over the world hating me w/o knowing one single thing about me... I may judge groups of people, and put a basic judgement on ppl...but I will always give a person a chance to show me who they are, no matter who they are... even if they may have been directly linked to something as big as 911... a monster we may paint them as, but what about their story? What about their influences? I cant blame him for being raised, molded, brain washed into who he is... (i use the world brain washed lightly...just a way to describe product of your enviroment) ... There is a little bit of good in every man and women, even though they maybe tainted as Hitlor, Stalin, Osama, etc... I am sure on a personal level those men had something good in them... but all we know is media, word of mouth, gov. etc. ... I don't agree w/ what they did, I dont believe in harming your own people.. I dont believe in torturing another person let alone an animal (I am not a veggie person either haha i love eating meat)... they maybe extreme cases... but on a smaller scale, its not fair to paint a judgement on a person...tell someone bad things about a person so before they even meet that person they already have a judgement on that person that is negative... we should not take others judgements and make them our own... we have that gift i mentioned earlier, a mind, use it, make your mind your mind... dont let anyone taint it or take it away from you... you can listen to the man next to you... but you dont have to believe everything he is saying, research it yourself, make your own judgement on the situation...

Anyways, I love how I never stay on any one topic...it just spills out... and all kinds of thoughts just keep coming and coming...no common ground but hey its me... haha <3


There's something happening here
What it is ain't exactly clear
There's a man with a gun over there
Telling me I got to beware
I think it's time we stop, children, what's that sound
Everybody look what's going down
There's battle lines being drawn
Nobody's right if everybody's wrong
Young people speaking their minds
Getting so much resistance from behind
I think it's time we stop, hey, what's that sound
Everybody look what's going down
What a field-day for the heat
A thousand people in the street
Singing songs and carrying signs
Mostly say, hooray for our side
It's time we stop, hey, what's that sound
Everybody look what's going down
Paranoia strikes deep
Into your life it will creep
It starts when you're always afraid
You step out of line, the man come and take you away
We better stop, hey, what's that sound
Everybody look what's going down
Stop, hey, what's that sound
Everybody look what's going down
Stop, now, what's that sound
Everybody look what's going down
Stop, children, what's that sound
Everybody look what's going down


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hopeless lol

:) I am def. a hopeless romantic. I feel as if i was born in a era that I should not have been, but maybe a 150 years earlier may have suited me a bit better. LOL! but then again, probably not, I dont think I could handle not being able to speak my mind and if i did, back then who would listen? But in movies, and literature men were depicted as such gentlemen, and just how the fell in love w/ a women in stories just makes me want to find my fairy tail love :(. I have a good boy friend, please dont get me wrong on that but he is not one that is passionate, he is not one who challenges me mentally.... he is flat and boring.... i crave so much more but at this point in my life, I am stuck in the relationship...and I feel society and men these days will reject me for my body is not perfect. Although I have very beautiful soul and a very beautiful face, my body is less then perfect. Yes guys do flirt with me often, and I am called beautiful often... but to myself, I still Carry alot of my past burdens. A very tough childhood, which has scared me for life, i would not change it for the world b/c it has made me the women I am today and I love who I am but there are still a few flaws and feelings i hold from the past that haunt me. I know what i need to do, just lately I feel so dead inside, losing my passion for alot of things..... I need something or someone to spark it, i need something or someone to push me a little... *sigh* who knows?

I find most comfort in nature, I love the forest and lakes, they are so humble. they are so peaceful and they help me relax so much.

In all truth, i just need someone to show me an adventure. Someone who test me, and captivates me.... lol i need my prince charming to come and Wisc me off my feet....lol

Lay me down in the cold cold ground, Where before many more have gone

Its a beautiful song, the one posted at the end of blog...very powerful, moving, and heartbreaking.

I just made this blog b/c I am kinda in that strange mood to type, i get in this zone, its kinda depressing and heavy hearted feeling. The thoughts that surround it, are ones of fear, curiosity, spiritual, calming, etc. very hard to explain. I wonder/fear about our race, humans, were we are going, what else is out there, why we seek to harm one another, and in the world I grew up in....why is money everything? why is matriels everything? Why try to live a life w/ a mask and try to fool everyone your something your not? Such as "you lie so much, you believe yourself".... my thoughts are sooo scattered I am sorry :).

what direction to take this blog? I guess 1st w/ the song, its about the men that have died in war.....maybe not just wars in the US that have given me my freedom, but i feel it reaches to all wars of all era's.... funny how we use war as an excuse for our freedom, when we mostly seek for power, land, oil, riches, goverment, religon aspects.... I also find it funny how we are never consider the bad guys, and the opposing side is always the one of evil... then again, history is porpaganda lol... the winner always writes the story... the story becomes history... in most cases at least... its not that I hate our gov. its all, same w/ religon, that is just the backbone of most governments, whether we want to reconize it or not...I understand the structure that is needed, to lead people and keep us civilized in some aspects, but these days our gov. are not built for its people, its built for the greeds of many.... I am no different to the man next to me, in any part of the world... yet, we are not treated equal.... not in many peoples God's eyes, or governments... we as americans are sooooo lazy and soo blind to the world... humans are blind to the world and its beauty, the mother nature has given us so much, yet we ignore her and her energies

told u its a bunch of rants :p many scattered thoughts, but thoughts that surround me every day :)....I am not perfect, and i may preach these things, but i am just as guilty as everyone else...

please answer me a question, everything starts from something, we are product of our enviorment, thus we can use the excuse of blaming our parents for our attuides and faults later in life... which is not true either, most of our enivorments stray away from the home, silly ppl... anyways, I just cant figure out the whole elitest world, and why so many people want to be these people and even most will act as if they are them...buying things they cant afford, and living a life style they never earned or in truth, again, cant afford...for what? to impress the fellow man?... I came from nothing, and I am still not much but i am alot farther then my family that is for sure, and nothing is stoping me... but i dont crave to have riches, my selfishness lies with in happyness... I just want to have a happy life, and I want to share that with as many people as I can... life is way to short to try for these foolish goals of riches, life is to short to waste it working every moment (yes u are wealthy....grats....are you satisfied with life? are you happy? some yes, you are...others feel an emptyness, a void.. ).... why live a life of hate, why hate a fellow many for not believing in the same god as you? why perscute him? why banish him from lands? why create geonicides ?... war is foolish, i still have not found a reason for it.. maybe its just basic animal instinct, the whole territory thing ;) then again, there is no more territory in the world to be claimed, so since we have that out of our system...what else?? haha...anyways back to the negative with in our society, *SIGH*... so much negative, and i am guilty as the next upon focusing on it... :).. i try my best OH i try my best to stay away from it... gossip >_<, arrogance, ignorance, anger, ....i try.... and some times i stray from my beliefs but something always hits me and awakens me...reminds me who I am and why I am here on this earth...

I am blessed as everyone else in this Universe... not galaxy, solar system, world, or earth... but in this Universe to be part of it... we are blessed to have life, we are sooo blessed to be living... its strange how small life is to us, and how small we are in this Universe, hell we are microscopic in most aspects. and thing of the microscopic organisms that are the foundation of our life?.... that is why I am here, b/c I am blessed to be living, and I need to stop forgetting that... don't live life w/ anger, hatred, judgement (that is a big one)... b/c before you die, you will wonder, what part of this world was worth living? and was my life worth it? eh maybe u are satisfied by living up to society terms :)..just maybe


Lay me down in the cold cold ground
Where before many more have gone
Lay me down in the cold cold ground
Where before many more have gone


When they come I will stand my ground
Stand my ground I’ll not be afraid


Thoughts of home take away my fear
Sweat and blood hide my veil of tears


Once a year say a prayer for me
Close your eyes and remember me


Never more shall I see the sun
For I fell to a Germans gun


Lay me down in the cold cold ground
Where before many more have gone
Lay me down in the cold cold ground
Where before many more have gone

Where before many more have gone

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m-PVSK05Ans