:) I am def. a hopeless romantic. I feel as if i was born in a era that I should not have been, but maybe a 150 years earlier may have suited me a bit better. LOL! but then again, probably not, I dont think I could handle not being able to speak my mind and if i did, back then who would listen? But in movies, and literature men were depicted as such gentlemen, and just how the fell in love w/ a women in stories just makes me want to find my fairy tail love :(. I have a good boy friend, please dont get me wrong on that but he is not one that is passionate, he is not one who challenges me mentally.... he is flat and boring.... i crave so much more but at this point in my life, I am stuck in the relationship...and I feel society and men these days will reject me for my body is not perfect. Although I have very beautiful soul and a very beautiful face, my body is less then perfect. Yes guys do flirt with me often, and I am called beautiful often... but to myself, I still Carry alot of my past burdens. A very tough childhood, which has scared me for life, i would not change it for the world b/c it has made me the women I am today and I love who I am but there are still a few flaws and feelings i hold from the past that haunt me. I know what i need to do, just lately I feel so dead inside, losing my passion for alot of things..... I need something or someone to spark it, i need something or someone to push me a little... *sigh* who knows?
I find most comfort in nature, I love the forest and lakes, they are so humble. they are so peaceful and they help me relax so much.
In all truth, i just need someone to show me an adventure. Someone who test me, and captivates me.... lol i need my prince charming to come and Wisc me off my feet....lol
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